Esther chapter 5

Wow what a day it has been! Today has been another long and stressful day but definitely much better than yesterday. I am very grateful for the lord's presence in my life today. I really needed his peace to give me the strength to shut my mouth on several occasions. In a way, I see a lot of Esther in me because she was a very determined person. I am the same way. If I feel an injustice is being done, then I am going to speak up and attempt to fix it. Esther did the exact same thing but she had to have a little bit of a push from Mordecai before she would go through with it. The difference in myself and Esther is she is meek and humble. I am not! If I had been in Esther's shoes, I probably would have marched into that throne room with guns blazing and demanded a meeting with the king. Esther's humbleness proved to be an asset for her. There have been so many times when I have begged God to allow me to be meek, to get rid of the attitude, to stop being so opinionated, and much more. I've never been the "Proverbs 31" woman. I never wanted to be the opinionated person out of all my friends. As I've gotten older, I have mellowed out some, but at times the old me pops back out. I can learn a lot from Esther because not only was she humble, but she was patient. I am one of the most impatient people ever! I hate waiting on things. I don't even like getting to school early because then I have to wait for a few minutes before I get Lane out of the car. I just don't like waiting; however, Esther did. She asked Mordecai and all the Jews to pray for her and fast for her. This played a major role in how King Xerxes accepted her into his throne room. Not only did he accept her, but he was glad to see her. He tells her that whatever she wanted would be hers(only up to half the kingdom). She asked if Haman and the King would come
To a banquet that she prepared for them. Once there, she invited them
Back for a second banquet and we will learn about why each of these banquets are significant tomorfow night.